Well that sucks! I got in the truck and noticed the Air pressure which operate the Brakes and gear system low! The guy said should be fine when we drive around because it should build it back up. So we left and i had problems moving off everytime i was at a turning or roundabout. Only because the Air pressure droping and then the brakes come on and got stuck a few times. So couse of this qwe went back to the Deport and got someone to look at it. I lost my place for the test! So now i dont know when i have a test again! :( I was sooo looking foreward to go home. Now i have to find out whats happening! :(

I was so looking foreward to it too :(

oh geez i tired! Just done 4 hours drive. I thought be two today but nope its 4 lol Tho it was nice drive but no shouting at me this time. The guy think i can pass it but picking on a few mirrors. slow down when appoaching the round about. I tend to rush it and make it hard for my self which i agree. Forgot to check the mirror time to time but nothing big! So i happy! Justy feel like a nap now lol

I got a lesson 2moro at 9 and after that i off to London! to go back to the troop and get my rail warrant. So i ready to leave on Friday to go home. I so cant wait to chill out at home!

anyhow back later on the rubbish mac :(

Well I cant remember what i was going to say but anyway.... I had a nice day getting up late even tho i went to bed at 5:30pm after the night out the day before.

I cant be arsed to get uop and go to the stables this week. The thought of me walking 40mins i really cant be arsed! I think i am changing tho! To a more lazy person! i getting into cable and watching BSG and stargate and most of all Cops on camera lol lol.

Those yesterday i was really getting annoyed with the instructor on the HGV lesson. The bloke more picking on what i doing wrong and shouting at me. Now i dont like that shit! So caourse he on and on i was making mistakes and some dangrous and i end up pulling up and tell him to shut the fuck up! He was suprised but this but i said i not joking tell me not shout and stop picking ever little bit! I also said i cant think clearly when u putting me under pressure like this. Also i havent been driving this for the past week.

Anyhow he was saying it perfer to teach that way. Fine i say but not with me because i walk then take a lesson with u! I not having it and thats why i leaving the army. So he was like ok fine. Now there was some things he didnt make sence and he just got annoyed and shouty with me too and confused the shit out me. I said to him Explain! I DONT FUCKING KNOW what u going on about. Those i dont have him for the rest of the week but i sure not having that again. I now my errors but not shouting and give me a hard time! Its dangrous style of teaching in a HGV! course u can make a person like me flap and make make errors that could be dangrous u know?

Also i was chatting to Ashley last night and well it was good to talk again but i was really suprised she got marryed last year! Mind u think i think i forgot! lol i cant remember shit these days. Anyhow She only down the road from my home! AND YES ASHLEY U BETTER GET UR ARSE OVER AND SEE ME! lol most of all i know ya for 3 year i belive? so i think its over due m8! lol

I cant wait to be honest to get home and see mum. Pass or fail on Friday i cant wait! Sit infront of my own computer! and talk and relaxes and catch up with people. Also most of all be a geek and play EVE!! lol i miss that thing and i think i need rehab to get off it lol lol

Anyhow i off to Myspace back in a bit!

Well i got my counter balance and Reach Fork lift lisence. It was easy but i got it at least. Now i have all this time i can get home. I so pissed off and bored and now i dont know what to do. I think i get a hair cut tho. I need one as it was last cut 2 months ago.

I was talking to kate last night. I was depressed to fuck and talk Kate i cant make it at all now. My wallet fucked up and i will need to go and work instead. Kate thought i may not be able to come but hoping something comes round to help me or something.

So what can i do to cheer my self up? i cant think of one :(

Going to chelford again and going out for a meal with Emma family and then me and emma going out clubing after and then i stay at her oplace and then back to basildon :P

Last week on resettlement for another 15 hours of training and then a test. I so hope i pass this time.

Ok welli tryed again and well it when down like a sack of shit! from the start i didnt back up enough to the boxs. So i fail there but my moral hit me like a train and didnt really try after. Tho i have found this truck i using and This test center it alot better and eayer than the other. Sadly i have to go back to the one i been using on the first 2 tests :(

So now i not sure i can do this. I dont know what to do now :( Maybe i just go back to horses on low wages eh? least i know my experiance and know how there still. :(

Ok well guys! I just spent £90 for another test out of my own pocket. Reason is asi pissed off with Force one how they do courses i spoken to this company. I wish i went with them because they do much as p[ostabout for me. So i booked another test 2moro at 8:45 for the test on HGV. Only problem is that its a different truck to get use to and different test center so i wont know the area. Good luck but worse having a go. If i pass then cool i made it and i have a class one next week. If i dont then i dont.

Also i have fork lifts test too in the afternoon but i been driving for 2 hours today and not done alot of training. So i got a bit of pressure to pass that at least. I am taking a chance but i had too tho.

anyhow i off Good luck to me for 2moro because i sooooo need it this time.

Ok i off to asda to get a big fuck off Galaxy bar! Only AGAIN i fail it! This time a better test but more letting my self down! I so pissed off now i cant do my Class 1 i have to Leave here with Class 2 which i trying anyhow.

Next week i on fork lifts for the week. They cant book another test during that week because its fully booked because that weather we just had.

Fuck this is turning to be a painful experiance to be a civi. It will cost me in civi street about £700 for class on course. So i must pass this other wise i fucked! Thing is tho i dont know what else there is to do.

One thing i can agree that the HGV 2 is fecking hard to pass and it is hard! not like a car test easy its HARD! lol


Ok people on Myspace that i deleted send me a mail! so i can add u back! I just kick about 90 people off my list the other day!

Bah i failed my test! :( i made a few errors but i know what i done wrong but he marked me down on some that i feel he shouldnt. I mean he marked me down on a pushbike because i didnt overtake. Well a bend up head adn on coming traffic? so i was annoyed with that. I also think he had a problem with me in the forces. Going on about tony blair! and rude too. but heyi ok with some errors because i pass the next one but i think he was way harsh and not fair!

there a ferw i can go on about but no point! just hope i dont have him again! ;/ anyhow another test on friday

EDIT:
Ok i had to leave the other place. Anyhow I have tuseday and wednesday or Thursday off. So i going to call the stables and see they need a hand for those two days! Also i hope i can ride too. Anyhow i worryed about the next test but i sure hope i dont have that man again.

If i dont pass it i sooo dont know what to do u know?