I had trouble sleeping last night! I think I only had 2 hours. Yet I don't know why too. Well I left my computer on and do a Virus scan while I was asleep. It did get a virus and I getting it on daily bases and its annoying me!

Well I got up at 12:00 and was snoozing all the way to 1:30am. Got into work with Robbie and done the rout early! It was a nice and good day!!

Tho when I got back home Dean a good friend well was. Called me and told me that he cant make it to the wedding. I sat there blinking thinking what? So I asked him why? He basically said he is stint and he tied down with the house! DIY and redoing the house etc.

I sat here thinking What a load of bullshit! I thought wait you been to Bulgira 2 week ends ago. Now he is skint and he had over 12 months Notices of this. So he tried to explain it would cost over £1000 for him and Linda to come. I said no not really I cant get your flight sorted for both of you about £700-800. Then he said Sorry m8 I really wanted to come. I thought and said really you both do? Fuck this and hang up on him!

This pretty much taking the piss! He fucks off on holiday with Linda and doesnt bother for my wedding? So I asked ben 3 weeks ago incase this happens! Which I really hope he didn't but he did. Ben said yer I would but no speeches lmao

Tho to be honest I pretty dam right gutted! big time. one real friend and her BF coming to the wedding! 2 Online friend from EVE and 1 from Myspace. Half the people who I love to come cant because of operational duties which is true! Some cant come because they Really cant afford it because there in low pay jobs with horses. Then you have some just fucks you off. I sorta thinking was I such a cunt or something? 

Well I just kinda wondering what's around the coner for me! I just looking forward to see the girls from my group on myspace and go camping for 2 nights from 10th to 12th of October then go to the USA! Funny people I know from BHG (British Horses Group) on myspace are more friends than who I thought there were. Its going to be good and they want to wish me luck with the move etc.

All I have to do is bring a tent and sleeping bag and drinks :P People who are coming I know going to be great fun! tho 2 girls said they cant and that's Alex and Jackie! good lasses and fun! but sadly cant afford too go.